Polaroid Prose challenge – final week (Or: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Trust the Process)

Four and a half thousand words and almost 30 stories later, I’ve reached the end of my micro fiction challenge*. I’ve written about winged girls, abandoned shoes, time travellers, depressed cats, TV ghosts, floor sweepers, storytellers, compulsive hoarders and cream buns. Some of the stories have been extremely brief (the shortest, this week’s ‘The rose’, is only 29 words) and others technically sit outside the boundaries of micro fiction by clocking in at over 300 words. It’s been both fun and frustrating. Some days the stories, and ideas, have come easily and I’ve been relatively pleased with the results; other days I’ve struggled to get hold of a single decent idea, never mind write about it, and have convinced myself I am the World’s Biggest Fraud calling myself a writer. So, pretty standard stuff in the life of anyone trying to write, really. And if you don’t think every writer feels that way sometimes, even the super-successful ones, let me refer you to a Tweet I spotted this morning:

The point is, it does come and it will come, if you trust yourself and keep on going. So, despite the frustrating bits, I’m feeling more disappointed than relieved that this particular challenge is over. Planning and writing these little stories has become as much a part of my daily routine as brushing my teeth or trying to pacify the cat. I actually considered extending the challenge for another week or two, but the point of this exercise was to flex my writing muscles before starting a bigger project – a new novel – and so an extension would just be a form of procrastination. Having said that, I’ve got the short fiction bug now and I fully intend to continue to write and post these kinds of stories whenever I can – I just won’t be doing it every day.

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Jan’s Postcard Stories, which everyone should buy immediately

So, before I press on with my final selections, I just want to say another big THANK YOU to everyone who has made it their business to read the stories and pass on a comment in one way or another. I know everyone’s lives are busy, and free moments are precious, so I hugely appreciate it. This has been the first time I’ve shared any of my writing so publicly, and having actual, real, breathing people engage with these stories has been amazing. Everyone has reacted slightly differently and identified with different stories, and that’s been really fun to watch. I’d also like to once again thank Jan Carson, whose wonderful volume of Postcard Stories started it all.

 

Sometimes as a writer you can get bogged down with all the stuff that surrounds the writing itself – the waiting, the inevitable disappointments – but these little stories have reminded me why I persist. It’s because I love the actual process of writing. It’s the joy of creating something that didn’t previously exist from nothing more mysterious than individual words. It’s pure alchemy, and it’s worth the work. Worth the waiting. Worth the disappointments. A fantastic writer called Emily Lowrey (watch this space – she’s going to be huge), in a beautiful video she made called ‘One Million Words: An Ode to Writing’, says:

‘There’s this feeling in my chest when I find the exact right word, a lightness in my limbs when I make a stubborn sentence sing … the simple joy of it never goes away.’

That about sums it up.

Thanks for reading!

 

*The challenge was to write a piece of micro fiction, i.e. 250 words or less, every day for a month and share a few stories at the end of each week. To find out more about the background to this challenge, or to read the stories from the first three weeks, check out my earlier blog posts – week 1, week 2 and week 3.

 

Week 4 stories

Wings

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Penelope wakes up on her thirteenth birthday and discovers that she has, during the night, grown a pair of wings. They aren’t like the wings of a bird or a butterfly; they are a greyish colour, like old paint, and webbed. Penelope is ashamed of the wings. Luckily, they are small enough to hide beneath her clothes, and so she is able to go to school, like always, without anyone being the wiser.

The wings grow slowly, like Penelope herself, and she begins to think that maybe they aren’t so ugly after all. But still she hides them. She goes to school, like always, and then she comes home and stands for hours by the mirror, staring at her wings and wondering what they mean. Wondering if they have anything to do with the peculiar feeling she has had for as long as she can remember (one that, so far as she can tell, isn’t shared by any of her friends) – a feeling of heaviness in her very bones.

In time the wings become too big to hide, and Penelope cuts holes in her clothes and goes to school, like always. Some people are cruel and some are kind – as is the way with people – and Penelope collects the kindnesses like shiny pennies while the cruelties she does her best to cast aside. Her wings grow and grow and are beautiful, their colours shifting, opal-like, as she moves. And they ache, too. A deep, ponderous ache that mingles with the heaviness in her bones and weighs her down.

Then one morning Penelope wakes up and something is different. She feels different, yet somehow completely herself. She rises, goes to the window and climbs onto the ledge. Her wings spread themselves wide for the very first time, and the ache is replaced by a quiet sense of readiness. She is light. She is strong. It is nothing like always. Penelope steps off the ledge, and her wings catch the breeze and carry her on.

 

The rose

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There is a rose in my garden that blooms a different colour every year. It was red the year my daughter was born, and white the year she died.

 

Sweeping clean

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It is Jim’s job to sweep a long stretch of corridor. Every day, he works his way from one end to the other and then works his way back again. The corridor is a busy one, and it is surprising just how quickly the dust and dirt accumulates. Sometimes Jim wishes he could get rid of all the things that give rise to this dust and dirt. The people. The air. And, of course, himself.

 

The cream bun

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She stares down at the cream bun – golden and glistening with sugar. She should take a photo of it and post it on Facebook and Instagram. She should Tweet, WhatsApp and Snapchat it. Her friends and followers will want to know about this bun. They deserve to know. And, like the tree falling in the forest, if she eats this bun but tells no one, will it even really have happened?

She pulls out her phone, opening the camera app, and holds it above the bun. But something isn’t quite right. She switches to selfie mode and poses with the bun, showing her teeth and the whites of her eyes. Something still isn’t right. She places the bun back carefully onto the plate, closes the camera and puts the phone down.

This cream bun, though it is only a cream bun, is simply too good to share. Just this once, she will keep it to herself. It will be her delicious secret.

She picks up the bun, shuts her eyes, and takes a bite.

 

Marking time

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Bill is a time traveller. But he doesn’t have a Tardis or DeLorean, or the coordinates of a secret portal or wormhole. The truth is much more pedestrian. Bill lives and works in two different time zones, and so for eight months of the year – when the place where he works observes Daylight Saving Time and the place where he lives does not – Bill time travels every day, twice a day. Because of this, Bill has a unique appreciation of the slippery nature of time. Every evening, when he arrives home, he pours himself a whiskey and feels like a god amongst men, having cheated time once again; and every morning, when he sits down at his desk, his thoughts turn more bitter than his coffee as he contemplates his loss.

 

A country walk

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Today I went walking and saw rose bushes in the garden of a derelict house; giant daises all along the roadside; an old hay shed almost buried in greenery; crystalline raindrops on a neglected hedgerow. It’s the things we let be that grow the prettiest.

 

14 thoughts on “Polaroid Prose challenge – final week (Or: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Trust the Process)

  1. I really like Wings and the sense of getting ready to move on from childhood to independence. The Cream Bun is also very funny. A timely reminder of the need to enjoy the moment rather than relentlessly broadcasting experiences (have been as guilty as anyone of snapping and sending food pics!).

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    • Thanks so much for reading and commenting, Michael, I really appreciate it! And that story is a timely reminder for me as much as anyone – I am the worst culprit when it comes to documenting things rather than just experiencing the moment. And I’m obsessed with food pics!

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  2. A country walk and a cream bun, just love how you make us think about simple things we do or notice every day. Going to miss these Julie, thanks xo

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    • Aw thank you, Dionne, that’s lovely to hear! I don’t think I’m going to be able to break this habit entirely so I hope to keep sharing stories from time to time. And in the meantime thanks so much for all the support! xx

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  3. HI Julie! Well done! My favorites are ‘A country walk’ ‘ The rose’ and of course the beautiful and emotional ‘ Your Castle’ I can see her in, thanks for such a vivid and lovely reminder! Love Auntie Ada xx

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  4. Well done Julie. 🙂 I love the ideas in Wings.

    I did something similar when I wanted to buy some theory books. I’m a bit of a theory junkie, and have been warned it makes no difference if it isn’t applied to/learned from writing. I made a deal – 20 little stories and I could buy the books. It took five weeks. Afraid I wasn’t brave enough to post them online! Glad I did it. Those little stories gave me confidence to play with ideas.

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    • Ha, that’s such a good idea. My TBR shelves are getting out of control so maybe I should set myself challenges before I allow myself to buy another new book! I don’t know if I’m half wise sharing them online – if I’d thought about it too much I probably wouldn’t have done it but I just took the head staggers one day and went for it! I’ve never written short fiction before, so it’s been a lot of fun. Thanks for much for reading and for your lovely comments!

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